The Purple Sky

"Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream" - Khalil Gibran

currently posting from the south - end of borneo *wink*

if i'm given a word to describe working life it'd be - stressfull..!!

haihh..mind me..this is just a post call syndrome.

right now - i'm too sleepy to think of anything to write up here..hopefully i coud come around to write more later.. so send ur prayers for me ok..? pray that i'll be a good and efficient doctor! =)




my cousins and second cousins.. p/s: i'm my jadah's eldest grandaughter.









reality check - 2 days to go before convocation day. 4 days to go before i'll be off to melaka for my induction course. its seriously scaaaary i tell you. anyways, i'm motivating myself on daily basis to recuperate my already dampened spirits. most of my friends admitted to not have any revision done themselves during the break *silent relief*. dell reports the same - and currently she seems to be doing well. so i guess i'll be ok.



i hope i'll be ok. *sigh*



my long blissful holiday is ending very2 soon. welcome O miserable life.



after receiving my induction letter last week, umi suggested that we spend the weekend at jadah's (my grandma) house - because according to her, i may not be able to visit her as often anymore after i started working later.. i didn't say anything, but i guess she's right. so off we went to Penang for the weekend.


here's some new things i learnt while i was there this time round.




recognise this? it's cotton. fresh from the tree after being cleaned.




this the tree. ( i'm not sure wether this is the right term to use, so bear with me..)



and these are the ..err.. *buah kapas..* these are the mature ones - as seen here they've already fall onto the grounds. mature cottons are off-white. the ones freshly plucked from the tree branch will be as white as snow. *weee..*



some can just be found lying around like this.. during peak seasons, they'll cover the grounds with whites - just like snow. i'm serious!


to clean them - remove the so called kulit, the pulp and the seeds. dried them off under the sun.. and waaallaah!



it took me 15 minutes just to clean 1 piece of 'buah kapas'. jadah told me it takes around 100 pieces to make a nice comfy pillow. 100 x 15 mins = 1500 . 1500/60mins = 25 hours . so it actually takes an average of one day to clean enough cotton for one piece of pillow. imagine!




here are the pillows hand made by jadah. whats so nice about cottoned pillows? apart from being soft, they do not absorp heat very well. so that makes them cool - and very comfy to sleep on, unlike the new-gen styrofoam / sponge pillow.






A conversation that took place one fine day..

(umi) Dear..what is a blog?

Eh? Erm..*silence* (apparently giving definitions and descriptions is not included as one of my specialities..)

A blog is… a place where anyone can simply write anything. But the difference is it’s online. Anyone can read it.

Owh..ok. But then, how is it different from websites..? People write in websites too..

Hmm. Websites are mainly set up to achieve certain purposes. Like to market certain products.. or as a fansite or as a downloader and as such. In blogs people mainly writes.. simply whatever.. their daily routine, their opinion on certain subjects.. its like an online diary.. but wait.. *another silence* (starting to get confused. People do that in blogs too.. right? marketing, fansites.. downloader.. etc2.)

So what are blogs then?

That was how I ended up in wikipedia looking for ‘blog’


A blog (an abridgment of the term web log) is a website, usually maintained by an individual, with regular entries of commentary, descriptions of events, or other material such as graphics or video.
Many blogs provide commentary or news on a particular subject; others function as more personal online diaries. A typical blog combines text, images, and links to other blogs, web pages, and other media related to its topic. The ability for readers to leave comments in an interactive format is an important part of many blogs. Most blogs are primarily textual, although some focus on art (artlog) , photographs, (photoblog), sketchblog, videos (vlog), music (MP3 blog), audio (podcasting) are part of a wider network of social media

Owh…..

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Continuation of the above conversation..

(umi) So u mean there are people out there writing diaries to be read by other people?
Why would anybody want to do that?

Another tough question. *sigh*. Camane nak explain nih?

guess what's so special about this Big Mac?








it's free!!! yeAy!

all i need was a coupon (which i have aplenty, thanks to my sis and her friends..) and complete a chant within 4 secs at the nearest McD.

"2- all beef patties~ special sauce, lettuce, cheese, pickles, onions,~ on a sesame seed bun!"

i rehearsed the chant at home for several days.. (actually rehearsal only took around 30minutes..but i need to gather some guts before actually going to the nearest McD..hey, not everyday u chant infront of strangers ok..) went to the restaurant, shoved off my coupon at the counter, displayed a big smile, took deep breath and chant away..

by the time i knew it, i've secured myself a free big mAc.

yeAy!

learn more about the chant contest here

btw, the pic above was taken from google. i was practically halfway chomping on my Big Mac before noticing that i've forgotten to snap some pics, hehh..



on my way home, i saw this.




someone must have been badly preoccupied.
i tried giving front light signals and doing hand gestures, but i guess the uncle driver must have not notice it.
when i realized my attemps were all futile.. i took my camera and snapped a pic instead. ha!



wah. lamanya tak berblog. seriously, takde libido. skrg ni pun kebetulan ke cc sbb temankan my sis buat online application to various colleges, so i thought - what the heck. update je lah.

last saturday, i received my spa conformation letter. wah. berdebar2 bila tgk sampul putih besar kat postbox - it definitely couldn't be anything else. menakutkan ok. apa yg terlintas kat kepala aku time tu adalah - AKU TAKNAK KEJE...HUHUHUU... boleh tak nak duduk kat rumah mcm ni je smp bile2..? waaaaaa..... kalau time initially start cuti aritu aku mmg bersmgt nak start keje. time tu kalau suruh aku start keje right away tanpa cuti langsung pun aku tak kisah. okla, maybe bukan right awayla. tp i wouldn't mind cuti yg pendekla. tp lama kelamaan duduk kat rumah.. makin gembira - bangun lambat, gembira takde stress, gembira doing anything i want.. i'm beginning to feel..err..heavenly. tambah pulak..ilmu di dada semua dah degenerate bersama sel2 otak yg lain.. lagi laaaa... bertambah2 rasa takmau gi keja.. takmau..takmau.. taaaaak maaaaaau...................


boleh tak?

Entah kenape tetibe aku teringin sgt2 nak tgk KDorama a.k.a drama korea skrg nih. Teringin sgt2.. menggeletik-letik hati aku tiap2 hari.

Dulu senang je. Teringin nak tgk pape cerite je..terus surf internet. Abundance of sites yg offer free online viewing. Crunchyroll, mysoju, Veohtv, Youtube pun byk. Tekan play, tggl kejap, gi makan2 ke apa ke 30 mins later siap.

Ahh..begitu mudah hidupku dulu.

Melagha pun byk jugak time tu, hahaa..

So utk melegakan demam aku yg tak kebah2 dah dekat 2 minggu nih..aku pun merayau keliling town mencari kot2 ada kedai yg jual vcd/dvd drama2 korea/jepun..

Cari punya cari…1 hari….2 hari….3 hari….berlalu...to my horror….takda….langsung. Baik original mahupun pirated version. Sungguh sukar nak dipercayai…arghh…

Arghh…lagi..

So now I’m trying my luck..bukak 8tv dekat catch-up episodes. Ader la beberapa drama kat situ. Yg sites2 utk free online viewing tu sah takleh bukak lgsg dgn dial –up connection yg aku pakai nih.

Sambil click sambil berharap..pejam mata..mintak2 boleh..mintak2 boleh..

Satu2 satu window bukak..slow je. mencabar kesabaran pun ader jugak.

Dan finally biler drama prince hour mula load kat skrin pc aku, I can only go
YEHAAA..!!! I’m back baby!




Aku gi kedai kain tghri smlm.

Nak cari2 kain buat tambahan koleksi baju kurung aku yg tak seberapa.. (dah nak kerja la katakan) Dah lama aku pusing2 carik kain, byk kedai jugak le aku singgah..takde yg berkenan di hati. Last2 aku jumpe jugak satu kain nih kat satu kedai nih.

So aku pun bgtau la kat awek salesgirl yg ader kat situ – nak kain yg kaler krim bunga2 purple tu 4 meter. Bila diukur, rupe-rupenye cume tinggal 4.5 meter je kain, so kain yg lebih tu kira complementary la.

Orait set.

Tgh jalan2 nak ke kaunter tetibe aku ternampak pulak satu kain yg kaler maroon.

Err..yg ni cantik jugak.. (aku mula berbelah bagi)

Agaknye lama jugak la aku berdiri sambil pandang2 dua kain tuh..sampai awek salesgirl yg tadik tu dtg balik n tanye..akak nak kain yg tu pulak ke?

“Err…” (aku sengih2)

“Err..Sbnrnye saya confuse. Saya tak tau nak beli yg mana satu.” (sengih makin lebar)

“Beli la dua2..”

“Eh tak boleh.. Nanti lari budget.”

“Ohh..kalau camtuh, amik yg putih tu, nampak ceria sikit. Yg maroon nampak mcm kaler org tua2..”

“Ohh..yeke?” (pandang kain maroon lama2..makin pandang makin suka) “Ermmm.. tapi saya macam dah byk baju kaler krim.. tp saya takde baju kaler maroon.. yg kaler krim ni mcm dah ramai je org pakai…” (byk lak songeh aku time tuh..)

Lama aku pikir..last2..

“Oklah..bagi sy yg maroon tu 4 meter. Yg tadik tu kensel.”

Moral of the story.
1) No wonder parents aku malas nak teman aku gi shopping.
2) Aku mmg dah takde keje
3) Jgn jadi salesgirl kalau korg bukan org yg penyabar.
4) Aku sbnrnye takde idea nak tulis ape kat sini, huhu..

Went out with an old friend tadik. The first thing he said when he saw me was;

“Dear, u looked the same! Tak berubah langsung!”

Aku hanya mampu sengih2 bak kerang busuk..

Well..sbnrnye tak tau nak take the statement as a compliment or otherwise. In a way, it means that I look as young and as vibrant as last time – ewaahh..mcm dulu2 vibrant sgt, tapi bagus la kann..people always say- stay the same> don’t ever change. - and things like that. So again.. bagus la tu kan, that I don’t change.. but..on the other hand it sounded like aku ni takde improvement? Takde pembaharuan dalam hidup..Huhuhuu.. sedey kann..

But believe it or not.. bile jumpe member2 lama..That is the comment that I got all the time.

Not that I care that much anyway..Just that it makes me sat down and wonder..is it a bad thing?


salam..hello..sashiburi..aloha..or whatever and however you want to put it..

it's been sometime.huhu.. i'm currently at home. counting the days for posting allocation. my daily routine nowadays consists of waking up late (for no reason at all..even when i don't feel like sleeping i can still fall asleep), cleaning the house, take late breakfast, make lunch, then continue doing nothing ( doing nothing ranges from sending sms to watching tv to eating (post lunch meal) ) until dinner time. after dinner, i'll continue doing nothing. i'll watch practically everything on tv from tom tom bak to uncovering the secrets of planet earth in discovery channel. my sister had left for PLKN. so basicly its just me. me. and me at home. i'm not bored. really. i'm not. didn't i say i'm not bored just now?

although this is a bit late, but i think i'll write about my finalest final exam last month. honestly, i think the whole xm was kinda unfair. think about it- we had to endure months worth of suffering, physically and emotionally daunting - for it to end up in a 3 hours long exam. 3 hours only. mcm tak berbaloi. anyway, saying this - doesn't mean that i'm actually asking for a 3 weeks exam or anything. i'm grateful, tp mcm tak berbaloi je la. huhu. anyway, thank god i passed. Thank god. Thank god. there were 2 parts of the whole xm. the first part was the long case - we basicly are liable to get any case under the sun including minor postings (ophtalmo, EnT, dermato etc). i was praying for a surgical or Obstetric cases for long case.

during the xm, there were 2 rooms, the examination room and the examiner's room. while i was waiting for the exam to start, a surgeon walked past me into my examiner's room. i was like - yeay! a surgical case! the bell rang and i went into my examination room. the moment he saw me (to my surprise), my patient stood up, smiling broadly in almost a grin, walked happily towards me and greeted hi. i terkasima-ed, my mind was racing.. i mean - the patient looked well and happy! then he said it - while still in that same grin - doctor, i have SCHIZOPHRENIA. ohhhh..that explains.

the patient was cool, except for most part he chooses to tell his stories rather than answering my questions.. and his stories were looong..very looong indeed. ranging from how he was accepted to the university, to the moment he became a teacher, and later was appointed as Tun Dr Mahathir's bodyguard, and much later became an Orthopaedic surgeon in Switzerland. i was given an hour to take history and examine the patient, but i took 45 minutes to take the history alone - and the patient was still unwilling to stop telling stories then. when an hour was up, i only managed to complete my mental state examination and did a brief general examination. crap. i left the room praying hard the patient did not have any significant physical findings.

and thank god again he didn't. the examiners didn't asked much about the physical examination either, which was a great relief! and the whole examination went okay la i guess.

the second station, was for portfolio review. since i got a medical based case for my long case, i'll be getting a surgical based cases for my portfolio review next - which, i dreaded whole heartedly. of all the 10 portfolios i submitted, i loved my medical and peadiatrics portfolio the most, and i dreaded my Obstetric and gynae portfolio the most. but that somehow helped a lot, because - in my dreadfullness before the exam, i had occupied most of my thoughts thinking of them, how would i explain if this question was asked, i even remembered every nook and cranny of those portfolios.. and lucky me! most of the questions asked were the ones i've predicted, and practiced and memorized well. lucky me! and thank god again! i went out of the room feeling rather elevated.

lucky me. lucky me. although there were some others who were not so lucky to get some very tough cases. some just got simple cases, but had killer examiners.. it all depend on luck i guess.

anyway, at the end of the day i'm thankful.

there were some of us who didn't make it. what i can say is - i've been there, i know how it feels. it will be hard, but endure it. because, one day u may look behind and realize its a blessing indeed that everything happens the way it did.

oh crap again. it already late. i need to go home. i'll be internet deprived again once i left. nooooo.... don't miss me ya!

Currently blogging in Seremban.

Been here since the past 1 week for my final exam. My exam was on Monday, but the whole exam thingy lasted until Thursday – so that left me with plenty of time after the exam to basicly – do whatever I want. Which is.. not that hard to guess, hehe.. shopping. So with ann we hopped from a mall to another (there’s 3 major ones in seremban) – so we went to every single one of them.. i didn't bought much - there was no sale, so everything was kind of expensive. we basicly ust walked..and walked..and walked.. mostly enjoying the sight, and wishing if only i had more money...$$$.. =P after that we went to the cinema, get a dose of ‘Dunia Baru’.


The next day, I went to putrajaya to get my spm certificate. I lost mine (well, I don’t know when I lost it, I’m assuming it was during the time I moved from sbn to bp last august, only to realize it was missing when we’re about to have our Spa interview..) When I realized it was gone, mmg kalut abis. But somehow I managed to apply for a replacement – which took 7 weeks to complete (serves me right) - because I posted the application via the snailmail pos Malaysia instead of the national courier service poslaju– which would only take 3-4 weeks. I even went to the interview cert-less. Imagine me trying to explain to the interviewer how I lost my cert.. hopefully I didn’t made that much of a bad impression to them.


Anyway while in putrajaya, the person in charge asked me – awak dtg dari mana? (where do you came from?) and I terkasima-ed before answering – I mean, how do I put it – that I actually originated from taiping, now I’m studying in bp but currently staying in seremban? Inadvertently I said I’m from seremban – just to put it simply. Luckily he didn’t asked me to write down my address or anything for it would have been confusing (because in the application form I wrote my bp address and if he asked me to, I’d definitely write my taiping address since I’ll be moving away from bp in a weeks’ time) haha..


Anyways..last nite we went to PD for a dinner – ann had promised to treat. There was this great place in PD that we went a few months back which serves great seafood. I mean GREAT seafood. Totally mouth watering, sleep hounting food. We had been longing to go back again ever since. so we planned to revisit last night. But when we reached there – total disappointment – the diner was closed for renovation. Argh! So we settled for the kedai makan next door. I ate, but with great disappointment and this morning, I woke up with a diarrhoea.. huhu..






this was the second Malay movie i watched in the cinema. The first one was 'jgn pandang belakang'. Anyway, i would recommend this to everyone. the general plot was expected - but there were multiple hillarious scenes, unexpected turn ups.. it was a bit slow initially , but it gets better and better as the minutes pass. totally hillarious. so if u haven't watch - go watch.

i never liked the agony of waiting for exam to start.

the usual inability to sleep on the exam day eve. back pain. loss of appetite. dyspepsia.

its agony! agony! agony! pure agony!

i seriously pray that this would be my last one for a looooong..looonngg..time.

'O Allah. let me make it through this one safely. amin'

i love the way u bring the air for me to breathe.
i love the way u filters the bad from coming into me.
i love the way u let me enjoy all the scent in the world.
i love the way u look on me..


but i hate u for being so sensitive.
i hate u for making my life so miserable.
i hate u for 'crying' ever so often and not knowing when to stop.
i hate u for making me sick most of the time.
i hate the way u make me look bad in front of everyone.
i hate u for being so easily infected.



i'm down with flu..lagi. garghh..!! my nose!!

just got back to batu pahat. nope - i didn't go back to taiping, but went to khali's house in bangi instead. help him move to bukit mahkota. spent few days there. nothing significant. (mamat nepal yg tolong khali pindah rumah tu tried to hit on me a few times. he even pretended to be sick when khali told him i'm a doctor - haha..lawak2..)

remember my junior's house in seremban - the one we lived in when we were there a few days back? i mentioned living there felt a lot like being on vacation, didn't i? this is what i meant when i say vacation..


the view that greeted me everytime i opened the front door.. very soothing.



i also just found out that with a fully loaded car trunk (fully loaded/seated backseat is a bonus) - my kancil can go up to 135km/hr before the stearing wheel shakes incontrolably. haha.. (i'm so lucky my parents didn't read my blog.. =P)


my backseat today.. sekali tgk mcm teddyland pun ader gak..


1 : bantal spongebob evana, 2 : spongebob evana lagi, 3 : kepala teddybear Mr bean (hanis's), 4 : kerepek dari parit sulong courtesy of Kak Rahayu, 5 : bantal kukumalu (ann's), 6 : beg balik kampung hanis, 7 ; bantal peluk yours truly


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this is a sekali-harung-good luck wish

to those having exam today (bebudak sem7), tomorrow (bebudak sem 9) and in the weeks to come (bebudak sem 10), i leave u this;



a four leaf clover. may sound a bit superstitious, tp a four leaf clover has long been associated with good luck - each leaflet represents something: the first is for hope, the second is for faith, the third is for love, and the fourth is for happiness. for me, i think the whole thing is kinda cute.. (*thee..hee..*pengaruh anime honey and clover..)

anyways..pray hard. work hard. pray even harder. and don't forget to leave it to He who decides on everything.

gambatte ne!

a week ago, i told umi i'm going back this weekend. her reaction was:

umi : pasaipa nak balik?
me : erk? err.. saja2.. nak balik jap sblm xm.
umi : tak payah la balik. duduk ja kat sana study.
me : ala.. rasa nak balik rumah.. lgpun dah lama jugak tak balik apa..
umi : takpa2..tak payah susah2. duduk ja kat sana.
me : eh, tak2.. tak susah pun. mmg dah plan nak balik. org balik ok?
umi : mmm... *pause* ikut suka hati la..
me : thee..he hee..*yeay*


tadi, dapat msg drp umi..;
'tiket bas dr taiping balik kl on Sunday dah abis. so tak payah la balik.'


huhu.. mmg betul2 taknak aku balik ke nih..??? kecik hati tau, waaa...


gyaaaa..sorry for the long hiatus of update.

currently blogging from seremban using a housemate's lappy. been here for 4 solid days - came here mainly for strict revision regime..tapi till date, its feels more like vacation. at least to me la, haha.. we got to stay in this huge (and very nice) junior's house (with warm, comfy matresses..), somewhere kat atas bukit rasah - where the air is very2 chilly, (seremban mmg asyik hujan je 2,3 hari ni anyways..) kabus menyelubungi kawasan sekeliling almost all the time..

hujan+kabus+cuaca sejuk+tilam lembut dan sejuk+selimut tebal = i don't need to explain the consequence here, do i?

portfolios were all (safely) submitted on friday (thank Allah). macam tak caye yang that one big burden was finally off the hook. mcm org gile on the day of submission itself. bgn pagi tak gosok gigi, tak mandi, tak salin baju, terus ngadap komputer.. tak kuar dari bilik langsung, tak makan..occasionally gerak ke toilet utk qada' hajat, ambik wudu', and occasionally sarah yg cemerlang datang hantar makanan (roti bakar n cucur).. ke bilik sebab kesian tgk aku n housemate2 lain yg dah kematu bontot tak gerak2 dari depan komputer sejak pagi.

and the journey to portfolio completion tu..malas la aku nak explain di sini..safe to say, i learnt a lot (medically, emotionally, physically, and psychologically). kudos to all my frens yg byk tolong aku maser buat portfolio.. may allah repay ur kindness! lets see how the evaluation turns out to be at the end hokeh..

spa interview pun dah abes.. hahahaaa..gumbira2.. kalau tak kerana interview tuh. i don't think i'd ever memorize such things like - objective rancangan malaysia kesembilan, jumlah kerusi dalam dewan negara.. tak macam org lain yg nak mintak keje - (where the candidates will go to the interview centres) kat sini interviewers yg dtg kat tmpt kitorg. best! ada 2 stream, the so-called stream 'jahat' as they all put it, and stream 'baik'. lucky me, my name was on the stream baik. takde la susah sgt soalan2 yg ditanya.. in fact, i think my interview took the least time as compared to everyone else's! org lain ader yg lasted smp 45 minutes, mine only took a mere 10 minutes! i took it as a blessing, at least tak le kne bombard lama2, my umi kata "u must have been such an unintresting candidate, thats why diorg taknak interview lama2" chiesss... by the way, those in the so called stream 'jahat' were asked qts like - peranan ketua audit negara.. proses2 pembubaran parlimen, bidang kuasa badan legislatif..bla3.. kalah org nak ambik paper sejarah tingkatan 5.. huhu..kesian..kesian..

tinggal final long case and portfolio viva in few weeks time. and if all goes well.. i'll finally secure that title in front of my name. (btw, time interview tu the interviewer asked whether she can address me as dr. **** - and i said 'of course', hehee.. (padahal belum grad lagi pun =P ) anyways, pray hard that my journey will be made easy peasy all the way to the end. yosh.

okeh la. GTG. will be back writing if time permits.




Birthday aziemah. kat secret recipe batu pahat.




Bowling night.

now.

imagine yourself being on a widely stretched, green..green.. grass land..

on a windy day.. wearing a thin, fly away, white coloured sundress.

its summer time, the air is filled with the smell of grass..

the breeze is blowing ur hair..(ok sedikit tak soleh di sini..tp imaginasi ni hanya utk tatapan peribadi, ok..hehe) and u hear the sound of music..conquering ur senses..and ur body starts to sway..sway..and away..u fly.. along with the sound of the music..and the wind blows...






now try this.

blast ur fan at the maximum level. go on.. jgn malu2..go..Now! (kipas je tau..air-con tak main!)

make sure there's no one around to disturb you.

now close ur eyes..

and listen to this piece of music..

and imagine urself as the girl in the sundress..





go on..



































its magical, isn't it?


Last night was supposedly our ‘housemates night out’. It was Hanis’s idea, nak kuar makan ramai2 satu rumah – since the semester is already reaching its end, and selama duduk kat batu pahat ni sekali pun kitorg tak penah kuar makan berjemaah.

Plan asal nak gi makan satay kat kedai belakang umah je, tp at the end terpaksa tukar venue sbb kedai tu tetibe tutup, n bile pegi kedai lain, ader a bunch of our bathcmates – 2 bijik keta and satu van lot of people pun nak makan kat kedai yg same..so what was initially a housemates night out tetibe bertukar jadik batchmates night out..ramai (rumah kitorg je dah 8 org) giler..riuh rendah kedai tu dgn kitorg jer..

Mmg best biler ramai2 duduk sama2 makan2 and lepak2 gini.. catching up dgn gosip2 terbaru, bukak balik gossip2 lama..usik mengusik sesame sendiri..curi2 makan makanan dari pinggan org lain..then suddenly it dawned to me - in a few weeks time all this will only be memories..in a few weeks time each and one of us will trot along our own path and walk our life separately.

Yes.. there were many moments in the past where I was so eager to complete my studies. Tak sabar nak bekerja, nak upgrade diri ke fasa hidup yang lebih atas sikit, nak pegang duit sendiri. But at the end, bila masa yang di tunggu tu akhirnya tiba, bila kaki hampir melangkah ke garisan penamat, I silently hoped that time would just stay still for a while. I want to bask these moments a little longer.

Everything suddenly feels scary. And sad.

The joy and happiness, the carefree and easy (though not so easy la actually) life of a student will soon end. Lepas ni kitorg akan start bekerja, start a new life, and God knows where this new life will be.. on which part on the country would we be posted to.. what challenge we will face.. the new people we’ll be meeting next.. will they be treating me as good as the people I have around me at the moment? will life be as great? will I still have nice, good friends around me at all times..? I will find new friendships all right, but it will not be the same. These bonds we took so long building.. will it last?

And all these great people I have around with me at the moment.. who had been there for me through my good and bad times, who never failed to support whenever I needed them, never failed to lend their hands (and time, and money, hehe..), who had listened, gave advices, provide comfort..(who had also bullied, pau makanan, etc2 =P..) whose existence had been implanted in my life for so long that I cannot imagine how life would be without them. Macam jantung yang berdenyut bergantung pada pacemaker. Macam org buta yang perlukan tongkat untuk berjalan. Sorila these are the only examples that I can think of at the moment but you all can get what I’m trying to say kan?

Looking back, 5 ½ tahun yang berlalu ni raser macam a blink of an eye aje. Macam terlalu cepat.

~ to my dear friends.. I love you all, very..very ..dearly. muakhs..muakhs.. I may not be able to say all this kat semua org secara live - nanti korg kater aku jiwang la, emotional la..so if anyone of u tetibe happens to tersesat kat blog ni ke, ape ke in the future..know in ur heart that I always love you. Every single one of u. Thanks for making my life so wonderful. =) ~

Love. Peace.




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p/s: I just got back from the ward. My patient died last night. *sigh* Dia pergi meninggalkan 4 org anak yang masih kecik. Al-fatihah buat arwah. Semoga dia tergolong di kalangan org2 yg beriman..

today is a happy day.

i am happy today.

if u ask me why..? the answer is- i don't know. i just feel like smiling all day for no reason.

i finally found a perfect case for my portfolio today. the patient and the mother were great. they're bunch of nice people. nice people makes me happy. even finding a case after a week of hunting cases mcm org gile was kinda happy as well.

the bedside teaching with Datuk Shong was great as well. i seriously miss my lecturers in Seremban - meeting one today makes my heart leap. And after i presented my case today he smiled and said - "good. good case." lalala...happy lagi..

and kat gerai makan tadik jumpak this very nice guy yg sudi layan kitorg (me n ainon) yang dok tanya soalan2 bengong..that was sweet jugak..

and the conversation with bana tadi.. hehe.. that was fun!

haha..and the unexpected call drp encik zaidi tadi.. out of the blue.. hehee...igt jugak dier kat aku..u made my day ok.. =))

and owh..maybe jugak because i wore red today - my attempt to cheer myself up, sbb dah berapa hari asyik dok depress jer.. (nampaknye berjaya!) - red is definitely my happy colour.. hehe.. superstitious.. superstitious..

anyway.. even without all the reasons stated above, i still feel rather elevated today..

maybe there's a magic happy powder in the air today.. weee....

only Allah knows why i'm so happy today *wink*



I sometimes I wonder why I never got any better at doing these 2 things even after 24 years of doing the same thing over and over again every single day..




That is.., to wake up early in the morning and to take bath first thing after waking up. *sigh*

haaaishh.

what a day today.

i woke up as usual.. went to the ward, as usual. stepped into the ward with my right leg and a bismillah as usual..(and prayed for good day ahead..) scanned around for new admissions, and ahh.. plenty of them this morning. went check-out all of them one by one, all were mostly well, but none seem suited for my case write up. previous in-patients are rocovering. (some are not) saw miss C (a collegue) whom i was totally enraged at last night. (i suppose miss C hasn't learn the word teamwork yet. i do hope she'll learn that in time so that she wouldn't get into any trouble later when she starts working). anyway.. i tried avoiding her as much today - an attempt to ward off the boiling feeling.. - i think it worked. and even this morning, i still questions my reaction - whether i did the right thing? should i approach her and say something about it? - in a good way la of course. do i even have the right to do so? (because i'm not her superior or anything..) anyway, at the end of the day i didn't say a word to her.

last night was a total pat at the back for me (i do not like to be challenged, i have quite low threshold for anger and to worsen it all - i am also sensitive) but despite all that, and despite what miss C did, i managed to tell myself to let it pass. (although i had to admit i did rant quite a bit to ainon after that. =P) . it was quite an achievement for me, i must say.

anyway again, calm and collected people humbles me. i wish i could be more like that.

anyway, anyway again.. by evening, i still can't find a case worthy for a write-up, and that leave me as the only person not having a case yet so far. and the written-up case is to be hand in on monday.

i left the ward feeling stressed.

haaaihh.

what a day.

Two much happy news in a day! Mmg too much!
Pg tadi.. I saw an email from a dear friend telling me that she has finally found someone.. (years back, the three of us used to hang out together and share our sad love life stories. A year after that - wani, got married and that left the two of us - me and ilah, dejected. So both of us made a promise; that we must keep each other updated the instant either of us has any development in our love life) So this morning when I saw the first few lines of her mail that reads - girl, we made a promise. So here’s me keeping up my promises to you.. my heart started to beat wildly..oh no.. please let it be other promises.. not that one.. not that particular one.. but no..it had to be that particular promise.. I was so depressed that I actually went back to sleep for another hour even though I wasn't sleepy. *jahat kan aku nieh?, huhuu..*

And later this evening, Ann came to my room with that anxious look on her face. ‘Dear, its time for me to come clean. Its time for u to know all the stories that I kept from you all this while..’ and I sooo knew what kind of story awaits me.. uh oh..that she had finally decided to accept that guy in her life (someone she has been dating for a while now) and are going to have dinner/lunch at his house today with the mother.. and my heart goes 'nooooooooo......' again ( but only in the silently, hehh..)


Fine. I admit. I’m jealous. Hahaa..Oh ann.. now u knew, hehe..

Ok2..I should be happy for them..

And I am. Honestly, I am..

But when 2 very close friends whom I thought would be in the same ship as me for quite sometime suddenly unboard the ship, one would feel left behind betul tak? I now have 2 less friends to share my sad single stories. Haaaishh!

I'm off to fold my laundry and recollect my sad love life now, alone.




p/s: dear ann.. you know I love you, hehe.. you go girl!

the very topic that every Malaysians rant about yesterday, today and probably the next few days of the week would be none other than the big scandal.

even those who never actually mind about anything political-related before had suddenly started talking politics.

one only had to commit one crime and a lifetime worth of good deeds will be forgotten. i'm not taking sides, what he did shows that he is only human..but to say "he's just a man and all men make mistakes', and get away with it is also unfair.

what he did was wrong. he was brave enough to admit it, and even paid the price for acting faulty. so be it. lets not judge. lets stop the bad mouthing. lets just be a boring Malaysian. for all we know, he was once a great minister who had avanged our health system.




p/s: to imagine that i actually i drive past the stipulated hotel on a regular basis.. hehh.

p/s (p/s) : drNo: congratulations!!! u really made my day today...saya senyum all evening hearing ur good news!! yeay! (takleh post kat ur comment box, so letak kat sini jer laa..)

apart from the datarans, and the stadiums.. and all other places where people gather around to celebrate new year..

the gas stations were also jam packed on the night before new year..

little missy here thought its a new way to celebrate new year that she doesn't know of..new fill of petrol for a smooth sailing year ahead maybe? maybe feng shui related of some sort..

but haa.. apparently someone had heard from someone else who then told another someone and also everybody else (in that matter) that the petrol price will be raised by the strike of 12 midnight-which caused everyone to rush to the petrol station (and also add up to the massive road traffic jam..)

and i didn't know a cent about it. (until today)

nobody told me.. (nobody out there loves me enough to mention to me about this very serious stuff?? *sobs*)

luckily those are only rumours.. nothing come out in the news right? (it didn't right..?)




if only life is as blissful as this..

" About her ~




A lady in her 20s, living in the remote of Sarawak - trying to fulfill her dreams. One step at a time, discovering and learning new and old (forgotten) things as she goes along.. Loves to eat, watch heartmoving movies, and photography!!. Her secret ambition is to be a race car driver.