The Purple Sky

aloo..i'm back..i'm here with nothing precisely to write but i'm just trying to prevent myself from crawling onto bed and sleep. baru pukul 10. haaaih. i went for a jog again earlier and right now i'm all drained. again, only 1 lap. dah tak laratss. last week was worst. i didn't tell abt my post jogging experience right? haha... here goes..i was tired the whole night, slept early, (don't remember what time) didn't buge until 7 the next morning, hah! subuh dinosaur. didn't even hear the alarm. i went to the hospital with my eyes all red and boggy. but i was still dreamy and disorientated then so i crawled to the library to nap during lunch break. it was ecstacyyyy... and yess..my thigh and abdominal muscles were sore and it even hurts when i laugh. i guess my muscles had the shock of their lives when i ran that day. huhu.. so today i was more prepared. i warmed up before started running.. (haha..kejut2 muscles bgn tdo..) and i even had 2 bottles of livita ready when i'm done, haa..

but look at the sleepy and haggard me now..adoila..

i just wonder why is it so hard to remember the things that i've studied. sometimes when i open my books to look for something i don't know, its not unfrequent that i found traces evidencing me have had read that part before, but surpringly felt like i've never known that fact all my life? heh..and whenever i flipped through my books i saw traces of again highlighted words, foot notes, random so-called artworks (konon) drawn on the sides whenever i get bored..and i'm amazed by how much i've read before (kagum that even i can be that rajin, hehh) and to (pathetically) admit that none of them actually stayed in my mind long enough to be used when i needed it.

and there were familiar incidences in the wards such as having the doctors asking things like 'name the five site of porto-caval anastomosis?' and i went *blink*blink* because i can remember only 3 and even so i can only point them superficially on myself or only name the organs because i can't remember the veins specifically. or when i was asked to list the contraindications of MRI or to describe the physiology of phosphate metabolism. most of which i know i've read somewhere or memorized sometime in the past, i can even tell which book was it in and how the page looks like, but remember none of the things that i'm supposed to remember. the *blink*blink* technique is actually quite effective, non-verbally conveying message to the doctors. sometimes i tried the frying (menggoreng) technique, using the remnants of facts that i can still sadly recall and arrange in hopefully comprehensible sentences. this technique actually requires handful of guts, because..who am i trying to kid? the specialist? haha..and can naturally be discovered in a *blink* as well. but it might work (sometimes, if i'm lucky enough), if i happened to hit the right button. and then there's the bravest technique still..to admit that i've forgotten or don't know abt whatever it is being asked. the trick; prepared to be condemned to death and make sure the ear canal is clear enough for any heart wrenching comments to make their safe journey in and out.

..so you now know i'm not kidding when i say i'm so freaked out that i only have less than a year to graduate..!

OMG!! *faints*

all clad in telekung. baru lepas solat jemaah maghrib.

and another fact of life..all things studied in preparation for exam will self demolish the minute the exam ended.