The Purple Sky

kereta. kasut. lab coat. tendon hammer. and now lampu meja.
oh tidak.


i'll start with my labcoat.


1. aku tinggalkan labcoat tu di luar dewan time xm anaesthesiology and radiology ptg jumaat lepas.
i never see it again since. oh tidak.
nasib baik takde barang2 lain yg aku tinggalkan dalam poket tu, kecuali measuring tape. (dalam keadaan biasa, poket labcoat tu ibarat poket doraemon. ask for anything, u'll find it in there..)
so now i'm labcoatless.
and measuring tapeless.


thanx to bana yg sudi pinjamkan coat dier, at least for now i'm surviving.
tapi oh no. nak kne tempah baru before exam 2 minggu depan la nampaknye..huaaaaaa...


2. semalam jugak kasutku yg selama ini setia telah membuka mulutnya luas, luaaaas...... keluar lidah..keluar semua.. asalnye igt nak gam je kasut tu balik, when:


aku : karang time balik igt nak singgah cobbler laa. nak gi gam kasut balik.
5 org serentak dan beramai2 : haaaa? nak gam balik..? kasut macam tu nak gam balik..? kasut tu dah buruk *&^#*... tak rugi beli baru *%#&... dah sampai masa*&^%...buang jelah..*&#@...
aku : huhu..yelah..yelah.. (sambil usap2 kasut..)


3. keta tu dah dekat 8 bulan tak berservis.
oh tolonglah jgn geleng2 kepala. aku hanya seorg driver wanita yg hanya tahu isi minyak, isi angin tayar, basuh kereta bila kotor, dan cek minyak enjin bila kereta rasa lain macam. dan ahh lagi satu..aku juga tahu cek air. hehe..lain2 skill aku tak ada.. lalu bila kereta yang aku bawak rasa tak sesedap biasa..atau rasa macam tersangkut2 je hati mula rasa berdebar2...tiap2 kali nak idupkan enjin nak kemana2..hati aku mmg tak lepas berdoa..mintak2 la..sempat sampai sekolah..atau.. mintak2la..selamat sampai rumah..


bukan tak mahu hantar ke mekanik..tapi..


uhuh.. $$


dan uhuh..aku takut ditipu. (it happened once before)


dan disebabkan *uhuh* yg first tu aku can't afford utk ditipu..even tadi memberku si miha baru tunjukkan resit keretanya (yg hampir membuat aku menitik air mata..) yg dihantar ke kedai sbb minyak asyik menitik dari bawah kereta..tapi bila sampai kedai mekanik tu kata ini bocor..itu tersumbat..ini haus..lalu nak ditukar semuanya..(padahal sebulan lepas time member yg sorg ni cek kereta everything was fine..which aku secretly doubt betul ke semua sekali rosak at once...?) btw..member aku yg sorang ni went to the same kedai i got myself cheated so...mmm..


4. dan dah hampir sebulan aku tak nampak byg tendon hammer aku..dan did i mention yg exam aku will be in 2 weeks time?


5. and yesterday when i woke up i saw this.

sbnrnye when i first saw it was much more dramatic than this. aku repositioned lampu tu supaya tak nampak horror sgt

notice bahagian yg patah? lampu tu berdiri dgn adanya support dr dinding je. thanx dinding. thats what friends are for.

notice something about today's date?

its 20072007. hah!

0430. terjaga tdo n nampak 2 incoming msg drp 2 frens sejak mlm semalam.

msg pertama:

hi sori la, silent mode. dalam 400, boleh runding.
-*sigh* rm 400 utk mesin basuh 2nd hand utk kegunaan selama 6 bulan shj. kalau share 8 org? sorg rm 50. offer satu lagi cuma rm250 je. hmmm..

msg kedua:

hi there. esok u ader kat hospital tak? igt nak gi sana.
-dtg hospital?? *long sigh* macamana nih? bukan tak nak jumpa..tapi...*mengeluh lagi*

bgn n cuba nak study. flu aku ni lgsg tak membantu. dari semalam dok ader temperature.. lubang pernafasan pun cume sblh je yg patent.

beberapa ketika kemudian, zzzz... *tertido atas meja dan buku2..*

beberapa ketika kemudian lagi terasa ader sesuatu yg sejuk kat muka. huiishh..apa nih? sambil lap2 muka.. air?? tgk atas n nampak tingkap ader titisan2 air yg for surely dtg dari atas. keyboard laptop pun basah jugak. hiissyyhh..org atas ni lagi! bukan 1st time dier dok tuang2 air keluar tingkap dier. grrr.....

0921
tuut...*incoming msg*

hey are u coming to the ward with us?
-alamak. nak pegi ke tak nih? malassnye..humang aiii..

1007
ann bukak pintu bilik.
u, tolong habihkan nasik goreng i smlm ok? sambil angkat beg. nak balik kampung.
-haaa...? i mcm ni mana nak ader selera makan kak oi..!



ceh..and i still have a long day ahead of me today. terima kasih buat YAM Yang DiPertuan Negeri Sembilan sbb bg cuti hari ni.

aku tgh duduk2 kat jblt petang tu dgn member2 utk revision class. muke masing2 time tu penyet je.. mmg penat giler la hari tu..lecturer tu pulak mcm takde tanda2 nak berenti lagi..isykk..

tgh cuba2 nak concentrate tu, tetiba mata aku terpandang id tag kat tudung.. tah kenapa hari ni 'kelonsong' id tag (plastik yg buat isi id tag tu..) aku tu nampak lawa pulak, nampak mcm berkilat lebih sikit dari biasa, nampak mcm... baru.

haha..mmg dah betul la aku dah penat sgt. mata pun dah tak betul.

tp sbb curious, aku pun amik dan belek2 id tag tuh..belek dekat2..issyk..betul ke nih. takkan la pulak. mcm mana tetiba buleh jadi mcm nih... kelonsong id tag asal aku ader 2 kesan koyak. dah kusam n ader kesan bintik2 pulak tu. biler letak id aku dalam kelonsong tu muka nampak macam ada demam campak pun ader gak.. disebabkan kesan koyak tu, tiap2 kali aku tunduk kedepan sikit, semua isi kandungan dier akan tercampak keluar (selain id, aku ader letak reminder dgn poket kalendar dlm kelonsong tu) bende ni mmg selalu jadi la sbnrnya. aku mmg dah lama menyampah nak kutip id aku yg selalu jatuh ni dan mmg dah lama niat nak beli plastik kelonsong yg baru pun. tp bile sampai kedai asyik lupe manjang. tu yang smp skrg tak berganti.

anyway, balik kpd cerita tadi..time aku dok belek2 tu..semua ciri2 yg aku sebutkan tadi tak ada di situ. yang ader cume sekeping plastik id yang masih cun dan berkilat. apa lagi kesimpulan yang aku ader..selain..

sah lah tu mmg plastik kelonsong id baru.

soalan seterusnya...

sapa yg gantikan?

takkan la aku terbeli sendiri tapi tak igt? aku belum seperlupa tu lagi kot, insyaAllah. penat aku pikir...kali terakhir aku perasan plastik tu still buruk lagi adalah time aku pinjam buku kat library minggu lepas. dah lama tu. takkan la ader org masuk bilik aku n gantikan time aku tido? takpun ader org tukar time aku solat kat surau? sapa nak buat keje2 mcm tu? housemate aku? huiiisyyy..tak mungkin kot.

sampai skrg, aku masih musykil... bile aku citer kat kengkawan, semua buat muke dek je......apekah? takde pulak sesape nak tampilkan diri dan jelaskan kemusykilan aku nih..at least boleh la jugak aku cakap terima kasih..takpun belanja makan kuih sekeping dua.. dah penat aku pikir.. hari2 aku pakai id tu makin tambah kemusykilan aku.. isyk..

sungguh amat misteri.

I’m hungry. And bored. So I decided to take the tag challege. Ha! From Kak Hliza.

8 random things about myself

1. I can’t stand cream mushroom soup and all cream-based soups. I actually love cream soup or should I put it, I used to love them, until one hictorical day when I vomited 2 hours after I ate a bowl full of mushroom soup few years back. Nowadays I can at most have a sip or two, but anything more than that will physiologically be thrown back out of my tummy.

2. I have the tendency to miss number 3 when counting verbally. Say I’m required to list 5 items, I’ll usually go; number 1 is yada..yada.. number 2..yada..yada.. number 4..yada..yada.. only to notice when I reached number 6?

3. I can’t sleep well without my blankets on. I’ll feel bare. Haha. I need to make my room tad a bit colder so I can snugly wrap myself in the blanket before falling asleep.

4. I really hate people who litter! Esp the ones who throw stuffs out of their car windows, apartment windows. *special note to the person who lives one floor above mine, screwww you..!!!*

5. I used to name my two lovely gerbera. Amirah and Nazirah. Sob..sob..do R.I.P..

6. I have an addiction for sunquick blackcurrant cordial. I take it at a dose of 750ml prn (as needed) –minimum once daily. Failure to comply (which usually happens when I travel elsewhere or balik kampung) will lead to withdrawal symptoms (dry lips, sunken eyeballs =P)

7. My all time ambition was ( and still are) to be an interior designer. Hah! But circumstances lead me to medical field, and I’m grateful nonetheless! But if I have more time in the future.. hmmm.. perhaps I will..

8. I love the sky. Night time, day time, sunny, even rainy days.. I just love them. During younger days I used to climb and sat on the window pane just to enjoy the breeze, or play with the raindrops that fall from the roof. Even now, I have my desk facing the window so I can look up to the sky whenever I study.




The rule of this tagging game is I have to tag 8 other people but since I don't have that much friends in here anyway, haha I'll just tag Dr.NO in return for tagging me earlier. =)

lalala...back to my books.

a teaching hospital decided to ban the students from the hospital ground for 2 days due to the accreditation processes.


on one hand its "wohooo..!!"

on the other its - takut kitorg malukan pihak hospital ke?

*sigh* apa-apa jelah..

since I already put up a post earlier, might as well put up another one. if I wait till later, God knows when that later might be.

So okay. I've been tagged. by Dr.No. I've never been, ermm..directly tagged before, so bear with me through this.



What's my favourite flower?



I like flowers. I seriously like them. but to be honest, I like them more when they're alive and healthy. ie; the ones still attached to the roots. I hate to see the beautiful flower stems dries up and become hardened and brown on my desk. By time, the petals would just fall off and I had to throw them away. I think its a major waste. However, I love to receive flowers just for the sake of symbolicity (is there even such word?) alaa, like when someone remembers u and cherish u and they give u flowers on ur special day, etc..etc.. I wouldn't mind that. it makes me feel valued/loved. and to give someone a pot instead of a bouquet of flowers seem rather ridiculous la pulak kan, and not practical at the same time.. so.. hehh.. its just that again, I'm stressing here, I like live flowers more. period.

1. the sunflower



I like it for its vibrant colour. for its cheerfulness. a friend gave this to me once, I tried to preserve it as long as I can, and when it dries up, took up it seeds and tried to plant it, but was not successful. hehh. I love sunflowers. they make me happy.


2. the tulips


I like tulips for no reason at all. i just like it. its simple and its colourful!! as a kid tulip was the only flower I know how to draw. haha.. so much for a drawing talent! =) this pic was actually taken by a friend who went to the tulip garden in amsterdam, and owh! he made me green with envy when he showed the pics of them tulips!


3. the gerbera

see, i'm saving the best for last. of all three, i like this the best. hands down. the gerbera. especially the red ones. it drives me crazee. i actually tried planting the gerbera twice. the first one died after 3 months. the latter survived 3 months longer than the first. i guess i have no green hands. but i'm planning to plant my third gerbera. but not in any time soon la i guess.

hi everyone.
another post after a long hiatus. i wasn't in my blogging mood, but i was reading kak hliza's blog just now, somehow felt like writing something in here. so here goes a totally random post.

all who read my previous post would have known abt my washing machine. well, to add up to my series of mishap regarding this little creation called washing machines, the ones i'm currently parasiting (aka my friend's) broke down too. so earlier today, geared with my sabuns and berus baju, i rolled up my sleeves and started washing manually. hah. hours later, all i could do is sit on my chair feeling like my back would break. anyway, at least the laundry is done.

yep, i've been around these few weeks, jumping from blog to blog, catching up other people's post whenever i can. its just that i haven't been posting. don't ask me why. i guess one of the reason might be because i've been super busy..my finals are in about a month time. looking at the load of stuffs needed to be familiarized with before the exam, almost knock me dead. but yeah. i'm surviving. trying my best to build up my fortress so that i'm able to fend any attack from my lecturers in the exam.

so far my greatest weakness has been myself. i'm a nervous wreck. i can have nervous attack weeks before exam which can persist up to d day itself. which is actually mortifying. imagine not being able to eat, sleep or practically do anything weeks before the exam, retching away like mad the morning before exam, and went blank during the exam. for a student like me, its a nightmare. even worst than having dracula sucking my blood dry.

i had my worst nervous attack when i was in year 2, aka sem 3 final exam. i was so nervous and went blank on exam day. i failed that exam and had to go for reseat. i went home, hoping that i would be calmer and more focused by umi's side. i didn't. my nervousness just got worse by time. i remember sitting at my desk staring at the ceiling for days. and as you guess it, i failed that exam as well. which lead me to having to repeat a semester. major disappointment. that was when i realized, i need to seek help.

so i started talking to people about my problem. i started off with friends, but later realized i needed more than listening ears to solve my problem. i tried the counsellor, found her not suiting, before finally seeking refuge from my behavioural sciences lecturer. it was from her did i learn that i have some phobic problem. if i could name it, it would be examophobia..? hoho..i made that up btw, hehh..but i guess it would sound something like that.

anyway..the lecturer, Miss Z, as i call her, taught me breathing exercises, relaxation technique, prescribed me hot baths and some supplements, helped me through some desensitization exercises..etc..etc.. which had succesfully ease my way through the exam. she was my saviour indeed. i was well in the subsequent years, having less and less attack along the way...... until that day. i was about to have my end posting long case exam, and i was freaking out. that morning, i was pacing to and fro in my room, i can't swallow a thing, even breathing seem to require tremendous effort. i recognized the symptoms all to well, but nothing i did could prevail. i was in total mess.

but it seem like God loves me a lot still, as i was walking towards the ward that day, i managed to calm down and gather myself up. and i know luck was in my way as i walked to my patient's bed, when i saw the glowing eyes of my patient. i knew the case. i knew the patient . Thank God. and i think the exam went pretty well as well. i couldn't thank Him enough.

so here's me right now praying i'd have enough guts to face this exam with me and my senses in one piece. =)