The Purple Sky

now try this.

blast ur fan at the maximum level. go on.. jgn malu2..go..Now! (kipas je tau..air-con tak main!)

make sure there's no one around to disturb you.

now close ur eyes..

and listen to this piece of music..

and imagine urself as the girl in the sundress..





go on..



































its magical, isn't it?

Last night was supposedly our ‘housemates night out’. It was Hanis’s idea, nak kuar makan ramai2 satu rumah – since the semester is already reaching its end, and selama duduk kat batu pahat ni sekali pun kitorg tak penah kuar makan berjemaah.

Plan asal nak gi makan satay kat kedai belakang umah je, tp at the end terpaksa tukar venue sbb kedai tu tetibe tutup, n bile pegi kedai lain, ader a bunch of our bathcmates – 2 bijik keta and satu van lot of people pun nak makan kat kedai yg same..so what was initially a housemates night out tetibe bertukar jadik batchmates night out..ramai (rumah kitorg je dah 8 org) giler..riuh rendah kedai tu dgn kitorg jer..

Mmg best biler ramai2 duduk sama2 makan2 and lepak2 gini.. catching up dgn gosip2 terbaru, bukak balik gossip2 lama..usik mengusik sesame sendiri..curi2 makan makanan dari pinggan org lain..then suddenly it dawned to me - in a few weeks time all this will only be memories..in a few weeks time each and one of us will trot along our own path and walk our life separately.

Yes.. there were many moments in the past where I was so eager to complete my studies. Tak sabar nak bekerja, nak upgrade diri ke fasa hidup yang lebih atas sikit, nak pegang duit sendiri. But at the end, bila masa yang di tunggu tu akhirnya tiba, bila kaki hampir melangkah ke garisan penamat, I silently hoped that time would just stay still for a while. I want to bask these moments a little longer.

Everything suddenly feels scary. And sad.

The joy and happiness, the carefree and easy (though not so easy la actually) life of a student will soon end. Lepas ni kitorg akan start bekerja, start a new life, and God knows where this new life will be.. on which part on the country would we be posted to.. what challenge we will face.. the new people we’ll be meeting next.. will they be treating me as good as the people I have around me at the moment? will life be as great? will I still have nice, good friends around me at all times..? I will find new friendships all right, but it will not be the same. These bonds we took so long building.. will it last?

And all these great people I have around with me at the moment.. who had been there for me through my good and bad times, who never failed to support whenever I needed them, never failed to lend their hands (and time, and money, hehe..), who had listened, gave advices, provide comfort..(who had also bullied, pau makanan, etc2 =P..) whose existence had been implanted in my life for so long that I cannot imagine how life would be without them. Macam jantung yang berdenyut bergantung pada pacemaker. Macam org buta yang perlukan tongkat untuk berjalan. Sorila these are the only examples that I can think of at the moment but you all can get what I’m trying to say kan?

Looking back, 5 ½ tahun yang berlalu ni raser macam a blink of an eye aje. Macam terlalu cepat.

~ to my dear friends.. I love you all, very..very ..dearly. muakhs..muakhs.. I may not be able to say all this kat semua org secara live - nanti korg kater aku jiwang la, emotional la..so if anyone of u tetibe happens to tersesat kat blog ni ke, ape ke in the future..know in ur heart that I always love you. Every single one of u. Thanks for making my life so wonderful. =) ~

Love. Peace.

today is a happy day.

i am happy today.

if u ask me why..? the answer is- i don't know. i just feel like smiling all day for no reason.

i finally found a perfect case for my portfolio today. the patient and the mother were great. they're bunch of nice people. nice people makes me happy. even finding a case after a week of hunting cases mcm org gile was kinda happy as well.

the bedside teaching with Datuk Shong was great as well. i seriously miss my lecturers in Seremban - meeting one today makes my heart leap. And after i presented my case today he smiled and said - "good. good case." lalala...happy lagi..

and kat gerai makan tadik jumpak this very nice guy yg sudi layan kitorg (me n ainon) yang dok tanya soalan2 bengong..that was sweet jugak..

and the conversation with bana tadi.. hehe.. that was fun!

haha..and the unexpected call drp encik zaidi tadi.. out of the blue.. hehee...igt jugak dier kat aku..u made my day ok.. =))

and owh..maybe jugak because i wore red today - my attempt to cheer myself up, sbb dah berapa hari asyik dok depress jer.. (nampaknye berjaya!) - red is definitely my happy colour.. hehe.. superstitious.. superstitious..

anyway.. even without all the reasons stated above, i still feel rather elevated today..

maybe there's a magic happy powder in the air today.. weee....

only Allah knows why i'm so happy today *wink*

I sometimes I wonder why I never got any better at doing these 2 things even after 24 years of doing the same thing over and over again every single day..




That is.., to wake up early in the morning and to take bath first thing after waking up. *sigh*

haaaishh.

what a day today.

i woke up as usual.. went to the ward, as usual. stepped into the ward with my right leg and a bismillah as usual..(and prayed for good day ahead..) scanned around for new admissions, and ahh.. plenty of them this morning. went check-out all of them one by one, all were mostly well, but none seem suited for my case write up. previous in-patients are rocovering. (some are not) saw miss C (a collegue) whom i was totally enraged at last night. (i suppose miss C hasn't learn the word teamwork yet. i do hope she'll learn that in time so that she wouldn't get into any trouble later when she starts working). anyway.. i tried avoiding her as much today - an attempt to ward off the boiling feeling.. - i think it worked. and even this morning, i still questions my reaction - whether i did the right thing? should i approach her and say something about it? - in a good way la of course. do i even have the right to do so? (because i'm not her superior or anything..) anyway, at the end of the day i didn't say a word to her.

last night was a total pat at the back for me (i do not like to be challenged, i have quite low threshold for anger and to worsen it all - i am also sensitive) but despite all that, and despite what miss C did, i managed to tell myself to let it pass. (although i had to admit i did rant quite a bit to ainon after that. =P) . it was quite an achievement for me, i must say.

anyway again, calm and collected people humbles me. i wish i could be more like that.

anyway, anyway again.. by evening, i still can't find a case worthy for a write-up, and that leave me as the only person not having a case yet so far. and the written-up case is to be hand in on monday.

i left the ward feeling stressed.

haaaihh.

what a day.

Two much happy news in a day! Mmg too much!
Pg tadi.. I saw an email from a dear friend telling me that she has finally found someone.. (years back, the three of us used to hang out together and share our sad love life stories. A year after that - wani, got married and that left the two of us - me and ilah, dejected. So both of us made a promise; that we must keep each other updated the instant either of us has any development in our love life) So this morning when I saw the first few lines of her mail that reads - girl, we made a promise. So here’s me keeping up my promises to you.. my heart started to beat wildly..oh no.. please let it be other promises.. not that one.. not that particular one.. but no..it had to be that particular promise.. I was so depressed that I actually went back to sleep for another hour even though I wasn't sleepy. *jahat kan aku nieh?, huhuu..*

And later this evening, Ann came to my room with that anxious look on her face. ‘Dear, its time for me to come clean. Its time for u to know all the stories that I kept from you all this while..’ and I sooo knew what kind of story awaits me.. uh oh..that she had finally decided to accept that guy in her life (someone she has been dating for a while now) and are going to have dinner/lunch at his house today with the mother.. and my heart goes 'nooooooooo......' again ( but only in the silently, hehh..)

Fine. I admit. I’m jealous. Hahaa..Oh ann.. now u knew, hehe..

Ok2..I should be happy for them..

And I am. Honestly, I am..

But when 2 very close friends whom I thought would be in the same ship as me for quite sometime suddenly unboard the ship, one would feel left behind betul tak? I now have 2 less friends to share my sad single stories. Haaaishh!

I'm off to fold my laundry and recollect my sad love life now, alone.



p/s: dear ann.. you know I love you, hehe.. you go girl!

the very topic that every Malaysians rant about yesterday, today and probably the next few days of the week would be none other than the big scandal.

even those who never actually mind about anything political-related before had suddenly started talking politics.

one only had to commit one crime and a lifetime worth of good deeds will be forgotten. i'm not taking sides, what he did shows that he is only human..but to say "he's just a man and all men make mistakes', and get away with it is also unfair.

what he did was wrong. he was brave enough to admit it, and even paid the price for acting faulty. so be it. lets not judge. lets stop the bad mouthing. lets just be a boring Malaysian. for all we know, he was once a great minister who had avanged our health system.




p/s: to imagine that i actually i drive past the stipulated hotel on a regular basis.. hehh.

p/s (p/s) : drNo: congratulations!!! u really made my day today...saya senyum all evening hearing ur good news!! yeay! (takleh post kat ur comment box, so letak kat sini jer laa..)

apart from the datarans, and the stadiums.. and all other places where people gather around to celebrate new year..

the gas stations were also jam packed on the night before new year..

little missy here thought its a new way to celebrate new year that she doesn't know of..new fill of petrol for a smooth sailing year ahead maybe? maybe feng shui related of some sort..

but haa.. apparently someone had heard from someone else who then told another someone and also everybody else (in that matter) that the petrol price will be raised by the strike of 12 midnight-which caused everyone to rush to the petrol station (and also add up to the massive road traffic jam..)

and i didn't know a cent about it. (until today)

nobody told me.. (nobody out there loves me enough to mention to me about this very serious stuff?? *sobs*)

luckily those are only rumours.. nothing come out in the news right? (it didn't right..?)

if only life is as blissful as this..