The Purple Sky

yep. finally back in seremban.
tp kejap je nih. lusa will be going to miri lak for a month.
being in kelantan was an OK experience.
need more time to learn and really get to know the place and the people.
i guess i've already taken a liking to that place more than i should.
i'm even considering to return there for my HO years..hehehe..
kalau jumpe aku kat kelantan di tahun2 akan datang jgn terkejut la ye..haha..

yesterday temankan umi n walid gi jalan2 sampai ke muar n melaka.
time nak balik, walid ask me to drive the car, and i said yes.
i thought i am totally over the incident, but i was dead wrong.
aku sendiri tak perasan that fact sampaila time aku drive last night.

it was like reliving the incident.
hujan lebat.
waktu senja nak mencecah malam.
highway tak berapa byk kereta, tp kenderaan berat byk.
umi dan walid at the back seat.
macam dulu.
kecuali dulu umi was seating in front.
kali ni there was adik.

the moment hujan start turun aku dah raser tgn aku trembling.
bukan sbb sejuk.
i can feel the blood rushed into my head and stayed there.
the whole moment aku asyik terfikirkan incident eccident tu.
dan everytime jugak tgn aku akan menggeletar lebih kuat.
tp aku mmg degil. mmg ketegaq.
i never told umi. or walid.
aku taknak diorg risau.
aku taknak diorg hilang keyakinan kat aku.
aku diam je n terus drive dalam keadaan yg sgt stress tu, hoping yg aku boleh overcome my nervousness, soon.
"i've driven many times in the rain before in my kancil and everything was fine.
why should another car be any different?"-was my thought of comfort.
dgn umi yg asyik startled-kan aku everytime ader lopak atau keta yg dtg my way doesn't help at all.
bila sampai bangi i was beyond relieve.

mcm nightmare that has just ended.