The Purple Sky

"Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream" - Khalil Gibran

Ironic.
I saw them kids cycling together while holding hands - three bikes altogether across a road
I thought - yeah, lets snap a pic and put this in my blog under the title "dangerous driving"
Then suddenly the middle bike skidded - sending the cyclist flat on his tummy.
So I get this instead -->







I was back at home for the past 6 days.
Hadn't been home for quite some time, it felt good to be home after a hiatus of absence.
It felt warm.
Umi-walid-atiqah-the house... Everything.
And for the first time ever, I actually thought - why not come back?
Okay, this had never happened before.. I've always planned to come back some day. 'Back' as in Ipoh, maybe Penang.... just not Taiping (don't ask me why)
It just never crossed my mind.

But suddenly I came to think - why not? What's holding me back? My parents aren't getting younger, and I think Ive been away from home far-too-long.
I may even have forgotten how my neighbours looks like.
And Taiping is such a nice town what...
It may not be so hip and happening but..its cozy enough.


So yeah, why not?


So I told umi - just be patient with me - another 2 more years - 2 years.. then I'll definitely come home (and live under umi's armpit, lalala~)










Hahaa..
Tis.. the Ngajat Dance - by the Ibanese community.
Took these pics during my trip to an Iban Longhouse in Kapit
Community service during daytime - Rumba party at night time, ahaks! *just joking*
The longhousers warmly performed Ngajat and Poco-poco dance for us - (poco-poco, no kidding)
Btw, the one on the left is not an Iban, he's a fellow collegue.




Its a dance by the warriors before going to and after coming back from war
Just use your imagination and add some fancy warrior clothes, and he'll turn to this -


I have a patient in my current ward. She's relatively young - only 49 years old. She has severe mitral valve prolapse which has been there for god ages - thus in due years she had developed heart failure. Having this would mean that she needs a surgery to repair the broken valve.

Surgery has been planned for her many times but for some very obvious reasons they cant proceed with it.

See, this lady also has polycystic kidney disease, which had caused her kidney to fail as well. Patients with adult polycystic kidney disease usually have cysts developing in other parts of the body as well, over the liver (liver cyst) and brain (berry aneurysm)namely. Her liver has large cysts growing over major parts of it but miracle-ly its function is still good, but the existance of any growing cysts in her brain is unknown.

In order to find out a CT scan should be done - CT angiogram to be exact, but in her case, CT is impossible. Firstly because of the angiogram contrast (fail kidney may not tolerate contrasts)- but also because she can't lie flat! (due to the fluid overload and the failing heart!). She cant lie at all, not even for 5 seconds, let alone for 15 minutes!! Everytime we tried to put her on a semi prone position she would be breathless, coughing non-stop.

And to undergo a valve repair would mean that she needs to be on anticoagulant post-op, so as to prevent clots after the surgery, but if she happens to secretly harbours an aneurysm up there, it will just be like a time bomb waiting to explode! The aneurysm might just bleed and bleed until she dies.

Plus, surgery is almost impossible unless surgeons are able to do surgery with the patient sitting up. Her probable option now is to undergo dialysis - but that also might not be able to solve her problems since her heart is already so weak.

The last time i asked her, she said (with a smiling face)- "Apa boleh buat? Balik rumah sajalah, hidup happy2 1-2 tahun then pergilah"

*sigh* - some people find courage to smile at times we can't









This is from Peter Bong's wedding that took place last week.

It was my first time attending a non- Malay wedding, I had to be honest that I was a bit scared initially because I had to enter a church, but apparently it was an exciting experience - especially this one!

When the bride tossed the bouquet out, most of us singles who were standing there quickly went behind the many flowers posts to hide - I don't know whether we still wanted to be single or it was just plain reflex! =))

I wonder
why the thing that you needed most usually failed you at a very-very-VERY crucial time?

Like when it finally rained on a dry season you realized that your umbrella was actually left in the other bag - the day you decided to switch handbag after wearing the same one for a year? (this actually happened before..)

Very frustrating isn't it?

Something like that happened to me today, except that my frustration involves Allan Wu and it was 50 degrees higher - level of frustration. Yep. THE Allan Wu.






He was in Kuching today - promoting The Amazing Race Asia 2010 audition. It was like a dream. He has always been one of my knights in shining armor..Well,I had plenty of these knights, and.. he was one of them. I stood there..watching him dreamily from afar.. until they announced a picture taking session -

OMG..really..?

I gathered all my courage, straighthen my t-shirt and tudung, walk towards the stage, had to fight with my palpitations and all.. then it was finally my turn.

I smiled at him. He smiled back. My heart was pounding - I stood next to him, he said

hi there, how are you?

I said great - (now that you're here~) I strike a pose when the guy I asked to snap our pic said - adik, camera tak boleh on lah.

I went- hah? So I fought with that week old cameraphone (on the stage) for almost 5 minutes in front of him and a whole bunch of crews before I gave up. It just wont budge! ##*&^$#*&& cameraphone $%#**!!!

He just stood there, smiling all the time saying its ok, take ur time..

So there it goes. My 5 minutes tale with Allan Wu. Maybe we were just not meant to be. I will always remember the 5 minutes we spent together in my lifetime..

When I first started working, I had about 8-9 on calls per month --> more during festive seasons. There were times I had to go to work as early as 4.30am in the morning, went home at 9pm on post call days.. Life was hard but even then, I still managed. Not exactly enjoyable, but... okaylah. Getting up early in the morning was a major chore, though.

Currently, I had many opportunities to go work slightly late, punch card off duty at 5pm sharp, have only 3-4 on calls per month, but.........
going for oncall is still as depressing, and getting out of bed everyday is still a major chore.

Life just never gets easier.. *sigh*