The Purple Sky

"Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream" - Khalil Gibran

First Stage (Denial)
in the acute phase pt will present with:


  • terminal insomnia
  • nightmares
  • hypophagia (phagia=eating)
  • lost of appetite
  • social withdrawal
  • hyper-thothialltheplace (throwing things all over the place)


Second Stage (Learned Helplessness)
if left untreated most pt will succumb to the chronic phase, which will manifest as:


  • hypersomnolence
  • increase in appetite
  • hyperphagia (basicly eating everything within sight or within the reach of hand)
  • increase in social engagement
  • hyper-inetoclevthiup (i need to clean everything up. room, toilet, etc)
  • loss of orientation to time, space and person

diagnosis: pre-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
trigger: end-semester final exam


all the usuall symptoms. been thru it for God knows how many times already. but it never gets better everytime. same 'ol goosebumps.
and yesterday, i was lying on my bed all alone. don't really feel like studying, and don't feel like sleeping either. so i got up and assemble the not-so-new garment rack i just got from tot (bought for use in batu pahat later). it was 1am n the morning. =)

p/s: i'm actually feeling fine. not that stressed-up anyway, not yet at least. hopefully it remain this way till D day. (do take note that level of stress is not in reverse to level of preparation =P). nonetheless, having to wait for uncertainties is definitely an ugly feeling.

pray for me my dear readers.. i need all the prayers in the world. haih!







[P/s (p/s)] : currently listening to 'my way'-frank sinatra =)


friday 10/8/17 marked the day they officially earned the title which they'll carry for the rest of their lives. a title which with comes along far greater responsibilities.

oath taking ceremony


seeing this made my eyes hot. big HUGS to all of u! delldijafatah especially..i'm soo proud of u all!!

it won't be long till i'm there too, insyaAllah.





p/s: pic credits to (actually stolen without consent) jimbo =P



lin (a junior) and co. (her housemates) threw a birthday bash for mardhiyah (another jr) last night.


however thats not the highlight of my story today. the highlight is, for the birthday, they made her (mardhiyah) briyani. how's that for a cooking skill? hebat giler kan? anyway that is how i end up having leftover briyani for breakfast today.


the briyani..was seriously sedap. makan kosong takde lauk pun sedap. aku makan dgn rasa amat kagum.. diorang ni.. isyh.. hebat giler la i tell you. isyhh..

makin bz neh makin rajin lak aku update blog, hehh..

org kata makin byk tanggungjawab kite makin tinggi keupayaan diri.. ada satu wisdom saying, (aku tak sure kat mana aku dgr..) yg berbunyi; kalau kite nak suruh org buat sesuatu, jgn suruh org yg byk masa terluang, instead, suruh org yg sentiasa sibuk buat. the latter will be the one who'll get the job done.

i just noticed yg blogging and blog-hopping nih therapeutic. stress-reliever.
mind opener. bila menulis blog.. most of the time aku akan menulis bende2 yg selama ni duduk bersemadi dalam kepala je.. bende2 yg biasenye kat org aku tak cerita. seolah2.. viewing my own life from a different angle. dan jugak sbg satu cara utk mengekspresi diri and self discovery. . sblm aku mula menulis blog dulu, aku tak penah terfikir utk menulis apa2 dimana2.. aku ada diary, tp diary is one thing yg aku simpan utk diri sendiri, dan bukan utk dibaca dan ditatap org lain. tapi bila aku mula belajar menulis, (dan aku masih lagi belajar..) aku baru sedar yg menulis ni bukannya susah sgt.. aku pun boleh menulis! *now anyone can write!* dan makin byk aku menulis, makin byk bende utk ditulis! dan yg plg ketara..sikit demi sikit aku mula perceive segala yg berlaku dikeliling aku as topik yg menarik utk diceritakan/ditulis dalam blog. and writing is actually totally different from describing something verbally. ada byk ruang utk bermain dgn perkataan, manipulasi cerita supaya lebih dramatik..

part yg plg aku suka bila aku terjebak dalam dunia blog ni adalah..aku dapat baca ttg kehidupan biasa org2 disekeliling aku, dari berbagai jenis lapisan kehidupan. everyone has their own story to tell..their own struggle in life.. and discovering these, i may say, is a jem experience indeed. life yg sblm ni aku lihat from the perspective of my two eyes je, can now be seen from other's eyes as well. pretty something, kan?

(nowadays its not infrequent to find me qouting stuffs/things in discovered from other people's blog..ughh..talk about addiction..) tapi still.. there's a limit as to how far i can take in everything i read jugak kan.. so must be a bit wise there. *wink*

there's one more thing. my blog has recently been discovered!

hah!

(dell, i now u're reading this!) haha.. 4 years back when i started blogging i was just happy and content to have friends from blogging circle only. i never invited anyone to read my blog, or advertise my blog in any way possible, nor have i left any comments in real-life friends' blogs un-anonymously. aku penah gune my own real name kat sini before, but decided to revert back to anonymosity soon after. i also make sure that my blog is ungoogle-able had anyone tried to blog my name, heh. =P

bukan atas sbb aku menulis anything vulgar regarding anyone behind their backs, atau menghina sesiapa atau menulis apa2 yg bersifat propaganda atau provokatif.. (i'm a totally harmless writer, ok..), my only reason is..

aku selesa bersifat anonymous. (i'm not that anonymous anyway..aku ada post gamba sendiri every now and then dalam blog ni ape..)

so now babe, welcome to my blog! sorry i've been keeping this from u for so long..bukan sbb aku tak caye ko or anything ok! just jgn spread the word around ok, hehehe..

dell dija will be having their final year long case and exit viva exam later (today). * they're just hours away from becoming REAL doctors! walauwehhh...!! so uh oh..a HEARTY GOOD LUCK to both of u!! fatah dah beres, tinggal korg dua jer. i know u'll make it thru in a breeze. aku tak risau lgsg pasal korg actually. * lebih risaukan diri sendiri..huhuhu*


''dan ketahuilah, Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya''
(terjemahan surah Al-Baqarah:286)

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah- daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
(terjemahan surah Ali-Imran ayat 200)


p/s: dah pass nanti jgn lupe belanje aku makan eh?






anyone care to help.........? =)

I’m not an impromptu buyer. I think before I buy. If I want something, I’ll check it out first. Try it on once or twice, then I’ll go home. Kalau malam tu tak lena tidur, makan tak kenyang mandi tak basah.., then the thing is definitely worth buying. And I usually won’t decide until I’ve seen all the items sold in the other shops first. Aku akan duduk, list down semua brg seangkatan yg menarik perhatian aku, compare prices, compare tahap kemenyesalan kalau aku tak beli barang2 tu, then... baru aku akan beli.

Sbb tu aku suke shopping sengsorg. Actually it is more like, takda org yg boleh tahan shopping dgn aku. (haha..kecuali sorg dua member..tu mainly sbb kitorg kongsi principle shopping yg sama)

But this time its different. Aku nak cepat dan aku mmg perlukan kasut baru. So nampak je satu yg berkenan, aku terus ambik. Malas nak pikir byk.

Its tumit-friendly, for prolonged standing. Tapak getah, anti slippery. Tak macam kasut lama aku yg dah banyak kali malukan aku depan org ramai. Siap ader butterfly and flowers kat bahagian tapak dier. Very girlish ok. Sayang lak rasenye nak berjalan byk2..Takut nanti lama2 butterfly tu haus..hehe.. Dan jugak, sgt comfy. Aku raser takat nak lari2 pakai kasut nih takde hal punye.

ni lah kasut plg girlish yg penah aku beli seumur idup aku, heh..

This one is one size bigger than my actual size. Size kaki aku yg comel ni, spt biasa mmg susah nak dapat (size 4 @5) so tak kisah la. At least I’ll have my share of being Cinderella kot2 kasut aku tertinggal time berjalan/berlari nanti. Harap2 la ada prince charming yg nak kutipkan kasut aku nih, hehehe..

Hopefully kasut nih tahan lama.

Ohhh..I so love my new shoe!